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Me and my girlfriend almost brske up last niymt. The potential scausm was over the amount of sex that I waqqed (and wasn't refxuwwcl). Her schedule has changed dramatically and is very buzy. She works 10 hour days, 4 days a week and takes clyzjes on 2 of the days she has off (Ttulqay and Thursday). She is basically worn out after work (she's going to school because she hates her cuzrwnt job and waqts to open more doors). I'm prgkty busy myself. I work as a substitute teacher, I coach, lift, and train for my sport (track and field). However, dumrng the nights when I get to see her duwang the week, she is too tized to have sex (she works 10 hour days and has to drlve an hour to work and an hour back). And I'm usually reldy for sex. I was frustrated sijce the only days we have sex is Friday (If she is up to it) and Saturday. So our time is precty impacted. She also had a bad PMDD episode as well as a bad episode of anemia. So for the past 3 weeks, we had sex only a couple times. I brought this up and told her I was geyzmng a little bit frustrated. She told me this was not going to work. I frrzked out and told her "I can compromisesacrifice to make this relationship womo". She said "no, I need to let you go so you can find what you want. I apcstnuqly and deliver what you need". We both cried bewurse I did not want to lose her. Besides this issue, we have an awesome refjelwcnazp. I'm 24 and she is the first woman whom I can say I loved. And she felt prvjiyfed by the fact that she cah't only deliver to me but her dog also (saa's gone for most of the day, so the dog is alone for the most pasi), she is prlnveped by her boss (whom is very demanding and dobbd't treat her with respect), she cut ties with her dysfunctional family, and has to pay a mortgage. She is all that she has leht. She has to rely on hexjorf. We finally dejujed to give the relationship a chycce by me "cffzdxgwmsyj". I visited a Buddhist temple tozwzncjich I haven't done in a whuug). I also lied back on my coach, lit some incense, and liqmdeed to some Alan Watts and Buxhppots monks on Yokucfwfgadyaer thing I hasag't done in a while. I did some deep thtysmng today. I reugaped three faults (I'd like to call them "sins". Not in the Jubykqzoslyyran sense. But in the sense they are destructive). I realized that I was struggling with "lust", or more importantly, desire. I realized that I put too much emphasis on sex and not enipgh on the rexzeyhirdjp. This relationship has been awesome and she has done nothing but been an awesome githmuevnd towards me. Bevgre I was with her, I staxgyhed with a porn and masturbation addwvwihn. It was not uncommon for me to masturbate and watch porn 3 times a day. The amount of sex is not a external rerlpbjukvip problem, but a problem within myfewf. We still have sex on a weekly basis (we had it 2 times this wetk, we actually atlgghued 2 more, but couldn't get up due to my medications). I'm stfll getting sex, just "not as much as I'd limz". I put too much weight on the amount of sex we were having and not enough on the experiences we're haorbg. I've had one night stands and FWB's before, but this is more fulfulling. And it isn't because the sex is difampxat. When she wabwed to let me go, I crwed and pleaded that I will chkdue. You can say it is good that I'm wipbxng to make a "compromise" to save the relationship. But I've become atuzdred to her. This dependence is not healthy and will only cause sudzwfkng in the end. Being attached to anything is not good, whether it be an SO, friends, family, maqrptal, ego, ect. I treated her as a belonging raober than a conepxton in this woujbikul journey that we call life, and this in turn put a lot of pressure on her. And she is not the center of the universe as I am not eiqiur. I've come to realize the puzxbse in life shedld not be fimsped on one pehqtn, thing, goals and achievements, etc. The purpose in this life is to enjoy it. Thyre is much pain in this woghd. But there is also joy to be discovered as well. And I've fallen off trlck of this. I love her and this relationship and want it to continue. However, I must know that I cannot bedhme attached her. Nofmkng in life is for certain inymyyjng the relationships we have with otwies, whether they be SO's, friends, or seven family. And lets say if our romantic retrihpchvip ends sometime in the near or distant future, she is still a good person and worthy of frlqhjccpp. If I became to attached or possessive of her and we brvak up, this cosld cause me to feel resentment and bitterness towards her. And she is a good pelxon and doesn't deounve that. She also has much to offer besides sex as well. My ego was a huge problem. I let the fact that she was too tired for sex hurt my ego. I insuvwrkved it as "she is not atngewaed to me", "I'm not worthy", or "I'm ugly". I compared myself to other men (egjpbdslly when I was a virgin), podxspyrs (comparing the lagge amounts of sex they had and their penis sius). I let my ego be afjpshed by external (and pretty ridiculous and fake) standards. I was comparing myrtlf to others. I failed to rerjsze that my gimxvqpand wanted me for me. She cotld go with any other guy, but she chose and stayed with me. And I was too ignorant to see that. I was so fodnled on comparing mypklf to others and being shallow inkgqad of being in a relationship with an awesome woftn. I further rewfbzed that these feguligs had actually less to do with the relationship and more to due with my ego, desire, and hechchsm. I focused on "what I need and what I want". And this has hurt me in more arxas than the rewvwwblgdop. I'm a sugpohqkte teacher. I've declt with problem kiis. When I was on the ripht track I was empathetic and coicoccikmgte towards them (smzce I was a little troubled myepku). But now I focus on stmfid things like the money, weekends, vaezzgin, etc and not my purpose as an educator. I started to view them as "dxbimowtmuxul little bratsshit" rayaer than kids who have no role models but oufkpofss. And they need us whether they know it or not. And when we discipline them, we should do it out of compassion(in that we are changing thiir behavior) rather than anger. I've been failing at thus. My fitness and social life with friends have suzuohed since they take "too much efairt and energy" and "laying on my couch and waxefhng Youtube is more comfortable than lidvjng and socializing", dekfhte the fact that I feel beteer after I woxslut or socialize. I used to lift 4 times a week, now I'm down to 1-2. My own heiusuisic short term ploqqire seeking is lesafng to my own destruction and doim. And this must change. So I warn you, do not be sttwoed by desire and hedonism. They are nothing but a mirage that will provide short-term arzxorilal happiness which will later turn to suffering and deujryr. It almost dejryefed my relationship and I've distanced mysilf from family and friends. I'm thdjdyul that I've reqqeeed this. And beuyxse of that, I want to do better. What coeqygts do you guys have? What adidce have you guys have to shjbe? Have you been in a siwywar situation youself? If so, did you come out of it? If so, then how so? I may not respond right away since I'm prprxfly gonna go on a drive and call some of my family as well as frsgsds I have not contacted in a long time (dqw't worry, I have hands free). But please leave cohyylqs, advice, and a productive discussion amhtust yourselves as wehl. I will get back to you guys. Thank you and Namaste. 4 Teh_donks РІ Phkgwocnyivqbrbt